Have you ever had to wait for something that couldn't be hurried along? Did the waiting require sitting in complete discomfort of the unknown? Did the waiting require unrelenting prayer?
At moments did you find yourself scrambling for any amount of control in absolutely anything, because what mattered most was well beyond controllable?
When in this state, do you hold your breath frequently? Clench or grind your teeth maybe?
How about your stomach, is it in knots and the entire world seems to keep turning while you're somehow stuck in a state of pensive stasis?
Are you filled with anxiety, panic, or being so overwhelmed about the future that you can't live in the present.
I've found that I frequently have to surrender, in order to move beyond this state of mind and physical stress that it can cause. It is very difficult to do.
I have to stop forcing and seeking control. I have to surrender to what is and fight myself from creating a negative interpretative spin.
Instead, I have to search and seek for the simplest and most non-ego based answer and then surrender to it.
I find that when I am in this state of internal struggle, I often think of The Beatles song, "Let It Be" or Now We are Free from the Gladiator soundtrack.
We are stronger and more capable than we think we are.
What helps you when in this place?